Vote For Me

[EDIT]

The took my pictures away, and I don't know why. I did not take the dog pictures. I think that, perhaps, it's too late to vote, anyways.

Sunshine

The sun was shining yesterday, so I grabbed my camera and took a walk. Didn't get a lot, but I took a few that I'm happy with. You can see the others here.

It Was the Best of Times; It Was the Worst of Times

And, as usual, it's all about clothes.

I had been thinking, while I was in the Czech Republic, of my "I Survived Dance Camp" tee shirt. Katie had found a vintage store she was rather fond of, and I mentioned that I usually go to a shop in Calgary that could not really, even very charitably, be described as vintage. Or even "second hand". It's "used", plain and simple.

There is a lot of crap there. If you don't mind (and I don't) going through 300 hangers to find one shirt that you couldn't get anywhere else, it's a great place. And I have some wonderful, wonderful shirts that I've picked up there. While I was reminiscing about some of my favorites, I realized that it had been ages since I wore the simple black tee with white lettering kind of scrolled along it: I Survived Dance Camp. Now, since I've turned into a dance machine, some of the irony has worn off, but it's still a fantastic shirt. I wondered where it had gone.

And there was another one I had been missing, too. It has the brother from Napoleon Dynamite in kind of a crudely-drawn coat of arms, and in a banner scrolling above and below his picture, it says "I'm training to become a cage fighter". I saw the shirt before I had any idea of the movie, and, even so, it was the funniest thing I had ever seen on something I could wear. I lent it to Josh when he used that movie as a theme for one of the YFC service projects that he organized. To be fair, it took him a while to get it back, but I seem to have forgotten when he did, because I asked him about it just a few months ago.

Anyways, I decided to go through my tees today to see if I could find "Dance Camp" and, sure enough, "Cage Fighter" was right there with it. Wonderful, wonderful news. And Josh, if you're reading, I'm sorry for not remembering that you had given it back. I shouldn't have doubted you.

Thus ends the "best of times".

On the other end of the fashion-induced euphoria spectrum, I seem to have lost my favorite boxers. Now this both troubles and puzzles me. Troubles, obviously, because they were my favorites, and I'm sad not to have them in my life any more. Puzzles, because, unlike an umbrella, or a book, or a scarf, it seems like underwear should be a rather difficult thing to misplace. It's not like I'm taking them off indiscriminately, deciding that it's a bit too stuffy, and leaving them on the bus seat next to me.

I'm not sure where they could have gone.

While we're still trying to nail down the finer points of the terminology, the little chick's fascination with panties is such that, if she came across them, she wouldn't have hidden them somewhere. I'm quite sure she would have brought them promptly to my attention.

So, I haven't given up hope, but I'm not sure what else to do. I even checked on the back of the door in the little bathroom.

Nothing.

Rats. I guess I'm going to go train to be a cage fighter.

Vibrate

I should have paid more attention in marketing classes.

I've had several people in the last week come up and say, "hey, I saw your pictures - why aren't you doing this professionally?" One was a colleague who said I was really wasting my time in what I'm doing now. I've never been so flattered to be told that I shouldn't be working where I am. Not that that happens frequently... I'm sure you know what I mean.

I'm not sure, though, how to get to that next step. Some things are clear:

• I will not do portraits of children at Walmart
• I won't accept the hours and mobility that are needed to be a real photojournalist - besides, my desire to portray a slightly idealized world (the one I live in, actually), rather than absolute reality would get me in trouble there
• I will not sell pictures of kittens

Past that, though, it's much more murky. How do I make a living at this? Weddings? Maybe. Portraits? I'd love to, but that's going to be a fairly small market for the kind of work I want to do. "Art"? Well, that would be fantastic, but I'm not at all sure about how to get started.

Other than taking the pictures.


So here's the thing. When we were in Prague on the Saturday, and I saw that there was a little bit of sunshine, and had seen a bazillion people out the night before so KNEW that the streets would be full, I was excited.

Very, very excited.

And once I got out there... had my music going, had my camera in my hands, and started to make pictures (which is what photographers call it, and a slightly more intentional term than "taking" pictures, I think), I was ecstatic. I was almost dancing. I had a huge smile on. I wanted to sing, to run around, to somehow let everyone around me feel the way that I was feeling.

In some ways, it seems rather unnatural to be this excited about anything that doesn't involve beef, getting kissed, or A BRAND NEW CAR! But that's the way it is for me: it makes me feel alive, makes me vibrate, brings out beauty and hope and wonder all around me.

Part of me thinks it would almost be wrong to be able to get paid for that.


So I'm not sure what's next... start entering contests, I guess. Figure out what kind of market exists, especially in Calgary, where I'll be living soon. Make some good, large prints to get a better idea of how my pictures are working off of a PC screen. See if I can get in touch with other people who do this, and do it well.

If you have any ideas, I'm open.

But even now, I'm still smiling. It's just beautiful.

Prague - The People

Okay, here's the next (and final) set. The people ones were tough this time... not enough light to really get the sharp focus I wanted with the gear I have. There were some that turned out nicely, though. You can see the rest of them here.

Prague - The Design Pictures

Okay, the people are still in progress, but here are a few to get you started. Enjoy!

You can see more here.


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Oz

I think I wish I was Australian.

The hostel we're at here in Cesky Crumlov has Australian managers (at least for now... they're traveling, and just took the job for a couple months to tide them over until they head to France), another Australian couple there, and a fifth Aussie guy.

And they are all so friendly it just about frightens me.

I've heard "Yeah, no worries, Darryl!" about a thousand times in the last two days. And every time, it makes me smile. They joke around, they smile constantly, they use words that, I'm sure, they are making up on the spot. They have nicknames for everyone, as well as for a good number of inanimate objects, too. They say things like "yeah, mate, I have to go for a run... had some sugar, need to burn it off!" that are just wildly entertaining. Really, if you're planning to just burn it off, why bother in the first place?

When we arrived, I was pissed off. There was supposed to be someone here to meet us when we arrived. There was a sign on the door saying that reception was open until 8, and, at 7:30, there was nobody there, except for a couple of girls staying in the hostel who, kindly, opened the door and let us in. The managers had left a phone number on the door that was, unfortunately, missing a number. Didn't work.

Once we got in, I dug around a little bit, and found a paper on a noteboard with the wifi key, so I logged on, got online, and found the right phone number. So I called, and there was no answer. I left a message. But would they get it? Would they be back? Who knows... at least we were inside. But I figured that between not being there, leaving a phone number that didn't work, and then not answering it when we did call them, these guys had a couple strikes against them in my book when we were to meet.

So when they arrived, I was ready to tangle. But I was almost immediately disarmed by the Shawn and Tamara greeting me like a long-lost friend, apologizing for the mix-up, clearly being mortified about leaving the wrong number, and then treating me like I was staying at their house. They had been bowling, with the other Aussies staying here. Within 30 seconds all was forgiven, I was ready to go for a drink with them, and silently bemoaning my lack of an accent.

Add that to the many other Australians I have known and loved in Geneva, and I think that I want to go there. Other than the heat and the bugs and the seemingly large number of animals, plants, and creepy-crawlies capable of killing you that are native to that big island, I have a humch it might be my kind of place.

Prague, Day 3

I'm really, really tired. Good day. Bought ceramics. Ate vast quantities of pork.

Must sleep now.

Prague, Day 2

So, much of the communist era seems to have vanished without a trace.

I've been a little disappointed, as we walked around Prague and took a long bus ride out to Cesky Krumlov tonight, that the architecture and scenery aren't more... well, something. I could be in Austria, when I look around Prague. I could be in Germany as we drive through the countryside. I just don't feel like it's defined, somehow.

Thankfully, though, we found a little slice of the old communist heritage when making our way to the bus station.

As we looked at metro ticket machines, we were faced with the (unfortunately) usual dizzying array of choices. How many zones? Hard to say, since they weren't marked on the map. How much time did we need? Probably the short one (20 minutes) but it could be close. The machines were full of cryptic messages (like O+B, C) which didn't seem to match up to anything on the map or information board. Oh well. We decided to buy and hope for the best.

As we headed down onto the platform, one of my friends looked at the validating machine.

"Do we need to stamp them?" she asked.

"No," I said, heading for the escalator, and conscious of the time it would take us to get to the bus station and find out how to get the right bus, "that must be for passes, but when you buy them time-limited from the machines you don't need to validate them."

We got to the bottom of the long escalator, and two men in blue uniforms approached us, asking for our tickets. We showed them, and they looked them over.

"Not stamped" they said, turning them over and pointing to some almost-legible print on the back of the ticket. "See? English - ticket not valid. Passport, please."

So, it turns out that the "don't need to stamp it, it's dated from the machine" is only valid in every other country I've been to. I'd done a lot of metroing in my time, and I'd never seen anything like this. They had picked us out because of our suitcases, I'm sure. True Czech hospitality.

My mind flashed back to a guy I started talking to at the airport before the flight. He runs a software company (for macs, by the way) out of the US, but lives in Prague since he can work online and be anywhere he wants. He said it's nice, but can be a little hostile: Czechs don't really like foreigners.

In Calgary, there are people at the airport to help you out if you're not sure what to do next. They're old, and they wear white hats. They don't take your money. But the rules are a little different in Eastern Europe.

I reluctantly handed over my passport and we headed back up the escalators - where they showed us a poster listing the fine for riding on the metro with an invalid ticket: 700 CZK, or about 50 CHF/$.

Ouch.

There wasn't a lot we could do. At least they also pointed out, several times, that the tickets we were using were only valid for 5 stops (something we hadn't seen written anywhere prior to that). Wonderful. We were paying a fine on tickets that weren't even the right ones.

But, that's part of traveling. So we paid, we bought new tickets, found our way to the bus station and started on the aforementioned journey through vaguely generic countryside. We have a couple of days to explore Cesky Krumlov, and it's reputed to be beautiful, so I'm excited to see it.

I'm especially happy, because it's small. We can walk.

As far as I know, they don't ticket foreigners for walking.

Prague, Day 1

Well, we're here, I can pick up a wifi signal in my room, and have 5 minutes before I need to get breakfast. So, first impressions:

• It's strange to be in a place with snow again
• Judging from the ride from the airport, speed limits are not highly enforced here, yet
• People walk on the highway. Strange, in a "wow, I wonder what's going to happen" kind of way
• I remember now that I don't know any Czech at all. Not please, thank you, yes, now, numbers... nothing. It lends me a certain innocence that is, I think, refreshing
• I hate dealing with other currencies. Math. Yuck.
• My old bass player is here on business. I hope I get to see him.
• There are fences or wall around everything. There must be a lot of dogs.
• They have illuminated clocks hanging from some of the street lights. I think that's a wonderful idea, even if it did come from the communists.
• I wonder if it's too late to get tickets to a hockey game.
• To compensate for not knowing their language, I have also not learned anything else about the Czech Republic before coming here. We're going to another city, tonight, called Cheskie-something. I don't know where it is, and if I lose Troy and Katie I may actually die here.
• The lights over the river last night were beautiful. I can't wait to get pictures.

Got to go!

A Vicious Cycle

Some of you are going to be disturbed to read this. I'm sorry. But I'm going to write it anyways.

Every once in a while, I get in the mood for hot dogs.

The problem is that there isn't a good way to buy them so that they just work out. I have found dogs and buns that I like that come in multiples of six. Jalapeños aren't a problem - if I have those left, I can eat then with other things. Same for ketchup, mustard, and cheese. Sometimes I add fried onions (preferably sweet and purple, but I'm not too picky).

The killer is the sauerkraut.

I usually get done with about 12 dogs and find that I'm about 80% of the way through the package of kraut. What am I going to do with the rest of it? There's nothing else I eat it with... if I knew where to get decent pastrami I would try that, but I don't think that's such a genevois specialty.

And if I get another 6 dogs, I won't have enough.

Which means I have to buy another package.

It's like that musical thing where, if you play in 3/4 and I play in 4/4, we end up matching our downbeats every so often. And if one of us was going to trade over, that would be the moment. The problem is, this misalignment of the universe results in me eating a lot of hot dogs.

Now, I'm not opposed to eating the same thing multiple times in a row. In fact, if I make a big batch of something, I will sometimes freeze it, but just as often eat it until it's gone. (As a side not for anonymous, I would say that is a remarkable evidence of non-pickiness). But with hot dogs, I have this small inner voice saying that, at some point, enough is enough.

In fact, what usually stops the cycle is not actually running out of dogs and kraut at the same time.

It's looking down after I've taken a bite, and going, "what part of what animal could they make something like this out of, anyways?".

Yeah, that about does it.

Hey, I'm off to Prague for a while. Not sure if I'll get a chance to update while I'm there, but should have something worth reading when I'm back. Ciao!

Grafitti Day

For Caro, and Troy, and whoever else has been somehow waiting until it returned before they would visit again (at least, with a mac).




I really do.

Truth In Advertising

My dish soap is "Waterfall" flavor.

After several uses, I am not convinced that it's based on a real waterfall.




Thinking of trying to get my money back and buying "Summer Meadow", instead, except that that occasional whiff of manure may turn out to be a poor choice. It's hard to know stuff like that in advance, you know?

Where Are You?

It's interesting seeing how some of the demographics of people visiting TYC changes over time. For a while, Mac users were almost half of the visitors. Lately, they're down to 15%. Directly related to me not posting enough pictures? You be the judge.

Anyways, Canada and Switzerland have usually been about equal in terms of their percentage, but that seems to be shifting:



I'm not sure how to take this. Am I losing my Swiss appeal? Gaining momentum before my move back to the Great White North? Not talking enough about cheese?

Oh, and if you're reading from Italy - can I come and visit you?

Modesty

The little chick has been working on using the toilet. She did it quite a while ago, for a few days, and then lost interest and really didn't want to try again. She's decided now, though, that it's time, and she's doing very, very well.

On the first train-ride home with me after she began, she told me she wanted to show me her underwear. I explained that it was wonderful that she wasn't wearing a diaper, and I was very proud and very excited and we would be sure to marvel at her diaperless-ness once we got home, but that the train was not a great place to do that. Still, it was beautiful.

And I thought it was interesting, that both kinds of modesty - whether or not it's okay to be naked and whether or not it's okay to brag about what you've got going on - are learned, or, at least, develop over time.

Yeah, I know.... you were expecting some kind of catchy phrase or, at least, a point at the end. I don't have one. I just thought it was interesting.

Does Anyone Else Find This Frightening?

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity

Running

I went again today. It's been a while, and even though I've lost a lot from last time I went, it felt good. And it gave me time to think:

Things I like about running:

• Feeling good (eventually)
• Looking great (more or less immediately, but some of that may be psychological)
• Being able to do stuff like carry the little chick around without getting tired
• Feeling like my shoes were a fiscally sound investment
• Good excuse to carbo-load - hello, spaghetti carbonara!
  

Things I don't like about running:

• Sweating
• Not being able to sing
• That point where it feels like someone is trying to separate your rib cage from the rest of you with a dull, rusty knife
• Sweating in my clothes
• Being far from a shower while sweating

Yeah, I guess that about sums it up. Down with sweating, but three cheers for fitness!

Run, Fat Boy, Run

Okay, I don't think it was in the running for an Oscar. If it has "cinematic masterpiece" on the back cover, I'd check the small print.

But it's beautiful.

I would tell you what it's about, but the only ways that I could describe it would make it sound predictable and one-dimensional, and it really wasn't. I'll tell you this:

it made me laugh out loud

it made me want to hug the little chick

it made me wish I had an Irish accent

it had the best fight scene I've seen in a while

it made me happy to be alive


And if that's not reason enough to watch a movie, I don't know what is. Okay, maybe that and having Angelina Jolie (which it didn't), but still. Pretty good.

Extreme

I remember the first time Korey played them for me... we were in high school, and I thought he was crazy. I didn't get it.

But I've loved them ever since.

Korey's tastes have changed since then, and mine have, too, but this has been one group that I just keep going back to. Especially their first album, Pornografitti. It's a concept album about a boy who goes through varying ways of trying to find fulfillment... sex, status, power, materialism... before discovering the pitfall of sin and self-centeredness. He tries to find a way out of being who he is, to be who he knows he should be, and the story turns to redemption and love. It's quite the album.

And it hauls.

It's heavy, it's funky, the guitar-playing is beyond belief and it MUST be listened to at a pretty substantial volume. When I listen to it, I swagger like a very, very happy drunk man. This morning it took me 40 minutes to walk to work. I went once, trying (with some success) to control my desire to air-guitar - or at least make guitarist-face - at the good parts. And there are a lot of good parts. The problem is that, once I got there, there was another great song on, so I had to keep walking and air-drum my way through two more tunes. Finally, I danced my way back in time to get to my meeting.

But just barely.

Now, I got some new filters for my in-ear monitors (they collect the ear wax, which, it seems, I produce quite a bit of) and all of a sudden I can hear the sizzle of the cymbals and the crush of the bass drum again.

It's beautiful.

You really should listen to it.

More Mindy

I wasn't planning to take time for this this weekend, but when the muse calls, I listen.

A little more me with Mindy Smith, here.

8,000

Oh, a couple of days ago we passed the 8,000 mark - thanks, everybody.

I'm a little embarrassed to admit that it was a mac user.



Thanks for reading, for commenting, and for caring. I love you guys.

My Wish

Yeah, it should be for world peace. Or an end to hunger. Or even another U2 tour this summer (didn't anyone tell them I was leaving?!?) or love.

But I think that, if I only had one wish, I would get rid of nose hair. But not just mine: yours, too. Not that I've noticed yours - quite the contrary - but I think that maybe this is one of those things that's not doing any of us any good, and I'd like to be the guy who takes care of that.

And before someone (not naming names) spouts off about how it's important and our body needs a filter and blah, blah, blah, let me just say that THAT'S why we have technology... to take care of stuff like that without us having to have hair growing in our noses.

Happy weekend, all. After the departure of the MNB's last bass player in a quest for a better work/life/band balance, we have a new guy, and he's playing a solo guitar/vocal gig Saturday night at the Seven Arms in Geneva (in Paquis). I'm going to go cheer him on, and probably
sit in on a tune or two on percussion, and have a great cigar. So if you're in the neighbourhood, give me a shout and we'll meet up. It'll be fun, I promise.

Just For You

I'm a bit of an analytical kind of guy. And I have a kind of fascination with honesty.

I try, as much as I can, to be honest with myself, about myself. And I've done some pretty serious self-exploration over the last couple of years. I've figured some stuff out.

But it's always interesting to know how other people view me, too. I think sometimes people can see things in me that I can't see (or don't recognize) in myself. And sometimes, I think that they miss the reality of who I am because something about me - or about them - gets in the way of seeing the truth.

In any case, I've come to grips with two things:

1. Not everyone has the same penchant that I do for "I want to know!" (relative to just about everything that doesn't involve numbers or heavy machinery)
   
2. Asking "hey, what do you really think about me?" can put people in kind of an uncomfortable spot. Especially if they're not nearly as fond of me as I think and also value honesty

So, as a rule, I don't go around asking. But I am always intrigued when I get a clue or two.

Now, we all recommend stuff to people because we like it. But I'll probably tell everybody that they should listen to whatever my album du jour is, whether it's their style or not. Granted, I may be a special case in that regard ("it's not the music that's a problem; it's your taste"), but I think most of us would do that. So if someone tells me, "hey, I loved this book, you should read it", I may read it, but I'll often interpret it as a comment about that person, or where they're at at the moment.

It's different though, when they say it like this: "I saw a movie that you need to see - I think it's just the kind of movie you would like".

All of a sudden, I have a pretty fascinating window into what they think about me. It happened to me twice in the last week or so, both times from colleagues who wouldn't really have any way to know much about my taste in movies.

But they know me.

Thankfully, neither one of the shows contains the words "bimbos", "outer-space", or "chainsaw". So far, so good.

The first, which I've just started to watch is "Into The Wild". The second is "There Will Be Blood" (which, as far as I could tell when he described it, is slightly more sophisticated than its "chainsaw" cousins).

Since I haven't watched them, I can't really comment yet on what it is my colleagues are trying to say about my personality when they suggested them. But I'm kind of curious to see.

Do you do this? I can't be the only one... come on, it's safe to open up here. We're all friends, and your mother will never need to know. Mine will, but she won't tell...

It Could Be Worse, They Could Be Chaps

Okay, over the last few days I've seen three people in leather pants in Geneva, and one more outside... three women and one man.

And none of them were together.

So it's not like there was a "let's all wear out leather pants" party or something (I think we've all been there). These were adult people who decided, independently, that it would be a good idea for them to put these on and go out where people could see them.

I know there are some of you who are quite fashion-conscious. So check me on this, please:

Approproate times for a woman to wear leather pants:

1. When attending a casting for a Mötley Crüe video
2. When taking on some official function in a rodeo
3. When advertising, "hi, my name is ______ and I'm interested in picking up men my son's age"

Appropriate times for a man to wear leather pants:

1. Oktoberfest? Not sure....

So, I don't know if they're coming back. Maybe Poison was touring and I just didn't hear about it. Maybe they're German.

In any case, I'm afraid. And you should be, too.

David

I took some shots of my brother at Christmas. You can see some more here.

New Look

What do you think? I don't know if anyone else had this happen, but the link to get back to the main page from any one of the posts or archives seemed to have disappeared in the old template. So, I switched it. Function, never fashion.

I don't mind it, but I'm open to ideas. Let me know if you hate it and I'll see what else they have...

The Difference

...between wanting a haircut and needing a haircut is usually, for me, a pretty big one. And it pretty much always comes with "wanting" first. I got a cut before the wedding... I wanted to look sharp since I'd be pretty visible, but it ended up being, uh, pretty short. I don't blame the girl... I don't think there was much she could have done. But I really have to find a way to disassociate "haircut" with "look better" and "nice way to spend my lunch time" in my mind.

Rats.


Here's the evidence (as seen by Allan's camera)... end of the night, as you can probably guess, but short hair or not, it was a great time.

Me, John (groom), and Allan (co-speech-giver)

The Wedding (Again)

Well, yesterday was another wedding for a wonderful close friend. It was a busy day, but it was great. Busy because:

I was in the bridal party
I was playing drums and singing for the 8 or so songs they had during the ceremony
I was giving the toast to the groom (tag-team with another groomsman)
I was the emcee for the reception
I sat in on drums with the groom and the band for a few tunes at the dance

Great because I love the people who got married, and it was beautiful to see them taking this step, to hear them promising their love and faithfulness to each other. And it was good because I loved being able to participate in their day and give them something that maybe wasn't better than what someone else could have given them, but was, at least, unique, and could only have been from me, in how I played and supported and spoke.

And since I don't think that there was anyone there who regularly reads (or at least comments) here, I'm going to take a minute to just say that I nailed it. It was a good feeling.

Music is pretty much not a problem - I love to play, love to perform, so that's all good.

The toast was a bit tricky... the friend I was giving it with was quite nervous, and our styles are pretty different - I like to figure out the main points I want to hit and then just get up and talk. He likes to have everything written out, to be able to read it. But we got it figured... decided on a theme (a user's guide about the groom, for the bride), figured out which stories to tell and who would do what, got his part written out and mine outlined, and it went over really well. Funny in parts (okay, for most of it), but also really honest and sincere and appreciative from both of us. I think that best compliment that I received after (except for a hug and "I love you, man" from the groom) was this: "you really showed a side of him that most people here wouldn't know, and though speeches like that sometimes feel forced and a little put on, it was just so sincere and natural - I could tell it came from your heart. I think you really presented him well to the bride's family".

That made me happy.

The other part of my talking was a bit of an adventure. To MC a wedding with a lot of structure is not so hard... you just make sure things are moving along from one event to the next, more or less as close to on-time as you can manage. But this was not a highly structured affair.

I also realized as we were driving from the church to the reception hall that I had meant to think of some stories to tell, some jokes or something... and had completely forgotten. Oh well.

So I winged it. And I'm glad I did... it meant I could be casual, relaxed (I had one person after comment that it felt like I was just talking to one person... and after struggling for YEARS to get past my "now I'm giving a presentation" voice, that was a huge compliment for me) and funny on my own. And it went really well - I think it helped to give the rest of the evening a casual, relaxed, and confident foundation to kind of float along on. It was cool.

So, turns out this post is mostly just bragging so far... not my usual fare, and if you're a newcomer to The Yellow Couch, please don't be scared away without reading a bit more. I'm not usually quite like this. But I'm really happy with how it went, and wanted to share it with you.


It was a pretty significant day for me for another reason.

I don't dance (except at concerts, where I move pretty much non-stop from start to finish).

Or, at least, I didn't.


As the dance started, I kind of slumped into my seat. Usually, I start figuring out how I can get home and into bed at this point. But I had to be there till the end, tonight. I was ready for a long, long night.

I was sitting next to one of the bridesmaids, a friend from a long time ago who had come back to Geneva for the wedding. I said something to her about always dreading this part of the wedding. She was surprised. So was my co-speech-giver's girlfriend, on the other side of me. "You're musical," she said (which, actually, pretty much everyone does at this point in the conversation), "you must be able to dance". I tried to explain that having good rhythm is not the same as being a good dancer, but she would have none of it. They both decided that I was incapable of not being able to dance. Meanwhile the band started into the second tune, a 60's rocker. My bridal party counterpart looked at me and said, "hey, you know, it's a fast one, and there are a lot of people out there - no one is even going to notice you if it doesn't work". I decided she was right.

"Okay," I said, "do you want to dance?"

She did, so out we went, and you know what? It was fun. I liked it, and I kept dancing until I realized that it was going to be the first time I would ever have to get a suit dry-cleaned within the first week that I had owned it. But it was worth it. Turns out I can dance - not stunningly well, but well enough. So I danced with her, with other friends, with women I didn't know, with a whole bunch of people, with no one in particular. I danced with the bride, and even with the groom. It was pretty good.

Yeah, good wedding. And it left me thinking the same thing as the groom as we stepped off the dance floor for a drink and a bit of time to talk. We sat down and he looked at me, and said in his usual, direct way "Well, that's good. Done. Now, D... when is yours?".

Fun At Work

We did some values brainstorming yesterday at work - thinking about what's important for our company to move forward, and how we're actually doing in the things that we claim are our values now.

I loved it.

First of all, I am all over any kind of strategic, high-level, conceptual discussion like this... something that centers around the "why". I'm not sure how valued our input will be, but I love to give it.

But it was fun to make it work, too. Our regional manager introduced the workshop, which had a series of exercises and discussions designed to elicit the feedback from the group members. Then she said she'd leave it to us to organize ourselves and get it done. I was pretty curious to see what would happen... you get enough consultants in a room and things are bound to get interesting.

Now I'm not a guy who pushes my way into a leadership role, but I'm pretty happy to take it when it seems right. And this was a perfect fit for me... to keep the discussions on track, to clarify the points for people who had some trouble with the language (very few of my colleagues are native English-speakers, but the workshop and exercises were all in English), to manage the time, and to challenge the participants to get the best responses we could. Well, it wasn't long until I found myself taking it on... and I had a great time. It was cool, too, to have my colleagues thanking me after for making it work, for helping them to do something to the best of their abilities. I love that.

It's days like that that make me want to keep going back to work. I mean, there's also the fact that they keep putting money into my bank account on the 25th of the month. But days like this really help.

Cool.

Slippery (Creative) Slope

When I was in high school, I used to draw a lot.

Then I got drums. I found with drums, I could really create something more intuitively, more instantly, more naturally. It was great. While it may have taken me days to get a drawing that really captured what I wanted it to, I could do it in real time with music.

I still play the drums, but sometimes, I prefer to take pictures. And as I was editing a shot this morning (after working on a song I'm producing last night) I realized that, with a picture, I may have 10 seconds to see something (or someone), pull out my camera, frame, and shoot. I have another 5 seconds to upload it on my PC. If all goes according to plan, I take about a minute to edit it once it's online.

I've been working on this same song for a long time. It's not bad, it's just... reluctant.

And it's made me wonder... when I long to create (and I haven't ignored your question, Caro, it's part of what started me thinking about all of this), how much of it is about the process, and how much about the end result? In many ways I'm a journey-not-destination kind of guy, but in terms of creating, I think that it's what you do that matters... not how hard you try, not what you were going for... as art, either it works or it doesn't. But I wonder if I'm willing to give up what could be greater because something else is easier.

That kind of seems like it would be a shame. I mean, I would rather make one absolutely beautiful song than a thousand mediocre pictures. I know that it's not an either-or choice like that, but still...

Anyone with me on this? I know (based on the number of you who use macs) that I have a pretty high percentage of creative-types reading here. What do you think?